Black World

Shitty world out there
Selfishness brewing at all ends
People dont care
Human race needs to mend

Some good on the outside
Ego shown from the inside
What do you reap?
Nothing, just cribs you knee-deep

Attitude and Hypocrisy pile up
Ain’t taking you anywhere
Life just blows you right up
Your’e going down and life gets a tear

Big Bad world out there to bear
Perverted minds need to be chucked
When will these hearts repair?
God, Have mercy on the havocked

Shuck away the hatred beneath that smile
Genuinity lacks in few hearts
Humanity requires a step to be stabile
The heartless need an upstart

Drop of Love

I wrote this poem.. thinking about the empty hearts who Jus long for Love…long to be held with love.. someone they can turn to..this is about that little flame of hope for the hurting world .. Here it goes…

Just a drop of love
on the lonely
God is looking from above
watching the gloomy

Beaten on the inside
Struck down and destroyed
Who can feel their plight?
Who will fill their void?

Need a shoulder to lean on
Longing to be hugged
Wish their hope is not gone
someday should be love-tugged

Eyes gaze with a pinch of hope
For tears to be wiped away
In the Darkest hour, they grope
Looking for a miracle one day

I will come to You

A beautiful song that touched me recently

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You wont have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
And you dont know how or why, but youve lost your way
Have no fear when your tears are fallin
I will hear your spirit callin
And I swear I’ll be there come what may

cause even if we cant be together
We’ll be friends now and forever
And I swear that I’ll be there come what may
When the night is dark and stormy
You wont have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you

We all need somebody we can turn to
Someone who’ll always understand
So if you feel that your soul is dyin
And you need the strength to keep tryin
I’ll reach out and take your hand

How Time flies..

Jus something i wanted to write..
something really simple..

Am totally mystified.. when i look at the time..

It jus flies miserably..

Sometimes i wonder..

wish i could relive some moments..

like childhood.. school..college..

and i feel.. oh my goodness.. everythin is over..

and am sittin in front of a desk.. with a computer

and u know de rest..

but its all good.. so far..

everything the Lord has planned so beautifully..

u dont know which road your heading

but the Lord hopes for you to go on the right path

sometimes we make wrong decisions and we learn from our mistakes

and we jus feel .. wish we could have that moment again..

not to commit mistakes..

life is like that..

Its like the wind that is just felt in the nick of time..

and time teaches u a lot..

a lot about Life

2009 … so far!

Wel my blog ws dead for a while.. and now am bak again…
jus for sum updates..
new yr started off well.. but definitely not wel with the recession around us..
but then jus placed my hope in God trusting that He wil do the best for us.
Then i turned 23 in the month of feb…
dint feel lik turnin older..
but ws often amazed by questions.. “which coll r u studyin in??”
wel dats indeed a good goody compliment.. i jus thank them for the compliment
and say .. am workin… .. they r taken aback.. but then it digests wel for them..
Wel am jus livin in the moment.. not expectin anythin much..
Jus lookin unto the Heavenly father for everything.. in happy and sad circumstances..
thats how 2009 is..
And then in the end of feb.. went to valparai for a trip wid frenz from office..
twas a gud chillin trip..
And into the world of BI now.. no more in SAP.. i do mis SAP BI…
Like i said.. He does the best for me.. So looking unto Him for every step of my career
Wel life @ office is goin on by His grace.. ..
Lookin forward to the Project team outing from office soon to Kodai..
..
And am looking for a flat too.. i really mis my cooking and stayin in a flat..
and playin de guitar…
Wel Datz de news 4rm my end.. wil keep my blog alive often 4rm now on

Ever faithful :-)

Long time since I had been off the blog… but so many things happened over the last few weeks..Wel, the most amazing thing happened… I ws blown over… I jus cudnt believe my eyes..u wud understand soon..wat I am talking about.. its jus the splendour and beauty of God’s goodness and His marvellous ways.. and How he’s ever faithful… shows vividly in an explicit clear manner.. through my life…

So stupendous are his deeds.. and plans for everyone’s life… wel coming to the part where He has shown tears of joy cumin thru my eyes…Totally happened the last week.. .. Last week was a dreadful week for my company.. I jus got a mail on Thursday evening, the 24^th of july.. that I got a meeting to attend the next day, the 25^th.. I din’t have any idea.. abt it.. totally clueless..And all my frenz knew.. but I din’t know at all… went home that day.. joyfully.. then the next morning as I got up to get ready for my shift to take off…I jus thought b4 the shift starts, I wud jus spend some quiet time with the Lord.. jus like every other day..my portion was Ps 59.. all thru the psalm, it jus had this repeated lines – “For God is my defense. My God of mercy shall come to meet me” .. I felt so good in my heart and a great source of strength had sprung up within me.. immense peace and joy had filled my heart… I went to the office that day, smiling at everyone around me… and this day – I had so many people smiling at me.. I was wondering all of a sudden y r so many people smiling at me??? 

Anyways I ws done thru my shift.. and the time had come for me to attend the meeting.. And as soon as I went there, the HR lady came out smiling.. Hey jo.. ur meeting’s got cancelled… I still had no clue.. I jus smiled and said okie.. Meanwhile I had been getting calls.. on my mobile.. and then I came to know that it was a layoff meeting.. Wel the gist of it was that many employees were being laid off.. and I was one of them too…. And believe it or not.. It was totally God’s timing… I was the miracle that walked back in.. Every plan of God is wellcrafted..His handiworks are displayed in mighty folds.. So stupendous… words aren’t enough to describe it…. Jus give Him all the glory and honor in all humility.. Surely God is OUR defense… OUR God of mercy shall come to meet US.. He is Ever.. Ever ..Ever.. infinite…Ever faithful

De heat seems 2 b sinkin in the madrasi land :-P

wel… chennai- hot,hotter and hottest.. de 3 types of climate neva getz better day by day… but rite now de heat seemz to b sinkin…

but i got used to it.. cos i sit in the ac all day.. de monotonous lifestyle of a s/w engineer.. .. now doin the nite shift which apparently sucks big-time.. dude.. stayin awake wid eyes wide open that too for work but not a movie makes me go wild and crazy.. odd timins.. food habits change.. broken sleep.. and it sux a lot..

thought surfin the net seems to b alluring.. still work stands along the way and i wait intensely…. wonderin when the shift wud get over… .. morn shift aint better either.. gettin up @ 4:30 am and workin from 6 am in de office aint soothing either… its like workin when people jus then get up to cum to de office… this is how the life of a s/w engineer is… we r glued to de system… and stay in the ac all day long… sip koffe after koffe, wonderin when wud de day or the nite get over… try escapin b4 de boss catches ya… sit on email and fwd lik hell… stare into the sys… learn stuff.. that makes ur brain go gaga over the immense input of knowledge and slices it all de way thru… its a life where u hav a system right infront of ur dreary weary tired eyes… and keep workin… luk @ de clock tickin away the time.. waitin to get bak home… and de heat outside makes u sticky yicky.. anywayz lyf’s like that in chennai…. but i thank God despite evrything… every place has its own pros and cons.. jus hav to live in the place where God has put us in… and learn to luv life plus live in the moment!

A woman’s heart

Life’s been movin on…. Decided to write abt the heart of a woman.. which is so fragile.. easily misunderstood.. and easily broken..A girl is treated so indifferently in the society.. forget abt the society.. think abt home.. am talking abt Indian homes.. where a girl can’t be free at her home itself..

Parents love her, but they don’t understand her.. put rules that doesn’t make the girl give her opinion on life…

She gets frazzled easily…with no one to understand her…. Y do parents need to love when there is no understanding?

Y do they need to love her and miss her when there is no freeness in her being? They jus protect her too much but at one point they have to let her go..

I have seen my own friends suffer.. they work ..slog hard.. but their money is taken away by their parents..

Can’t anyone hear a girl’s cry? Y is this society so polluted? y is the Indian mindset so different?

When a girl is seen talking to a boy, parents wont say anything but giv warnings.. and de warnings go on and on forever in life..When a girl expresses her opinions abt the facet of life, it is termed as ‘back- answering’.. ofcourse she respects her parents, but does that mean that she can’t voice out her opinion ever in life??

She just fights for justice.. but never is given a chance in life.. there are very few parents may be a 2% who can understand this quest of mine…And I know that if we don’t respect our parents, our children won’t respect us in future.. with all this in mind, still a girl is degraded and not treated as one like the men…

Don’t men and women have equal rights? girls are striving for life by the end of the day.. struggling hard to breathe.. sumtimes they don’t feel like staying at home..They jus feelin lik vanishing in thin air.. sometimes though far away, they are disappointed and lonely..… sometimes.. they jus go thru the hassles of life.. wondering when wud life stop for them..

I know God sees the heart cry of every woman.. and I believe He can’t see them mortified or demoted in the society.. ..

The same girl gets married one day to a man… and very few girls get men who can understand them.. but then der r some who r in the same boat again.. and cannot voice out their opinion to their spouses.. de home gets a hold of the male dominancy.. and the woman who faces all this.. tries hard so that her children wouldn’t face the same she faced..she doesn’t lik to c their hearts get crushed..lik how she faced… and dat adds to de beauty of a woman..

But still life moves on..

Life’s movin…

The ambience of my blog… oooooo…

wel my blog ws silent for a while.. apparently.. dint hav net access @ home … so cudnt update…

The new yr kicked off wid a great start…

bday ws fun.. kinda special.. cut around 3 cakes.. which ws lik mind-blowing.. cut a cake @ de beach it ws different and nice…

Thank God for another year.. and also thank Him for the work He has given me… I enjoy my work, learnin stuff day by day.. really happy to get into this SAP-BI stream.. which is kewl… and i thank God for such wonderful colleagues… who r so caring and loving..  and I thank God for the amazin powerhouse church..  God’s using me mightily here in Chennai..  helping me to face any kind of obstacle wid a smile.. and wid the luv of Jesus in my Heart, am able to njoy life to the fullest wid Him by my side… Be whoever u are, He loves you so much.. no matter howevr u are… we are all sinners and He died for us on the cross of calvary, shed His precious blood to wash away from our sins.. and cleanse us from all unrighteousness..  His arms are always open, its just that we need to ask Him for forgiveness.. No one would show u and me as much love as Jesus shows..

Short and sweet… life’s beautiful wid Jesus by ur side

Dawn of 2008!

Feels so good to be in the new year…

Felt so refreshed on the 31^st night at 12 am..

esp after having finished reading BIBLE for a year..

I just thank God for not letting me to give up but read through the BIBLE with the hope that I wud finish by the end of the year which I did indeed… Thank you Jesus..

It was truly His grace that led me throughout the last year..The lord helped me to finish my engineering successfully without any failure and made me enjoy my 4 months of vacation before landing in Hexaware. God gave me new frenz.. it was such a joy to meet them..

I thank God for the simple things.. like a dress.. which many people dont have.. the pizza .. where many people wudn’t have tasted..the money .. for which I can depend on my own.. where sum do not hav a job in the world..and they long to get a job so that they can depend on their own..

Why me Lord? Out of all the people in dis world? U gave me a shelter to stay, clothes to wear, family and friends to love and care, life to breathe..

I thank you God for all that you have done for me..

I am just here bcos of You, Its like I have jus been picked from the dust of the earth and You put me on the rock to stay!

I don’t deserve anything of this, but Its you who gave me this life..

And planned my life with a purpose.. I am not an accident..But I am Your choice to be put into this world..

I can’t stop thanking You Lord…

Wel.. I believe that this year would fulfill all of our hopes,dreams and aspirations and.. resolutions..I ws so happy that I could fulfil my last yr’s resolution of reading the BIBLE..It ws so challenging, breath-taking and mind-boggling.. reading many valuable lessons.. gave me words of wisdom, knowledge and the Truth..

The other day, when I was traveling by share auto from home to office, I was inspired by songs… like ‘Here I Am To Worship’ and ‘Walk Closer’..

The line that touched me the most was, “I’ll never know how much it costs to see my sin on that cross” .. its so amazing that Jesus died on that cross for my sin.. and it includes not only mine but everyone’s sin.. Its upto us to choose Him and I am so glad to choose Him to be the Lord of my life..

I always wondered, Can any God or friend die for my sin or your sin? No.. I don’t think so.. Its only Jesus who did that.. His arms are always open.. His love is unending, everlasting and words aren’t sufficient to explain His love..

Jus a simple prayer, “Lord, Forgive my sins and accept me as your child” made me a part of His life.. That’s really so amazing..

The other song went on something like this..

I’ll walk closer now on the higher way

Through the darkest night,

Will You hold my hand?

Jesus, guide my way…

Oh, You mourn with me and You dance with me

For my heart of hearts is bound to You..

”Though I walk thru’ the valleys low, I’ll fear no evil..

By the waters still my soul, my heart will trust in You.”

Oh, You counsel me and You comfort me.

When I cannot see, You light my path.

It touched me so much.. I’ll fear no evil thru any kind of way.. spoke to me…My heart will just trust in Him no matter what!

I hope that this year wud help me in being a better human being and be a blessing to people around me… and others being a blessing to me …

Kudos…